Gym opens tomorrow.

And Mauren v.2013 will be underway.

Looking at pictures from May is making me realize just how far I’ve fallen off the bandwagon.

I looked so happy and healthy in all of those pictures.

And now I just feel really, truthfully ugly because I’ve gained (a lot of) weight since then. And I HATE feeling this way. More than anything in the world.

Looking at those pictures is re-inspiring me to get back on track. I think I’m going to do a full introduction re-vamp with the New Year (how cliche of me) but my healthy choices literally start now.

I can’t keep coming back to this dark place, because it’s so hard to get out of.

x

Mauren

I forgot to tell you guys that I, for the very first time in my life, have a boyfriend.

WOAH, when did that happen?

Like Friday, so it’s new news. But I am currently very happy with everything right meow. And if you guys are curious, shoot me an ask or something (:

Literally almost puked on the treadmill today.

Had to run to the bathroom..thankfully no vomit, but still. I don’t think I’ve EVER had that problem. Meh. Guess I’m more out of shape than I thought.

Oh, well. At least that’s what the gym is for :)

I’ve been slowly progressing back into Healthytown, USA.

I’ve been doing about 3 miles of walking a day with my friend and I’m trying to fix my diet.

It’s a process trying to restart, but I’m determined.

I’ll figure out how I want to format the blog soon but until then, hold tight you lovely followers.

<3

You guys, I have mononucleosis aka mono.

It’s known as “the kissing disease” (harhar) because it is spread by saliva. I don’t know how I got it, but I’m not allowed to do ANY strenuous activity for three weeks. 

I’m not even allowed to go to class for the next two weeks. 

This is a serious thing that I have to take care of. I wish I didn’t have mono, I wish it with all my heart. But just my luck, we are where we are, and I am sick as hell.

I’m gonna try and work on my diet while I can’t exercise, it definitely needs a revamp. But it’s going to be awful not working out. I hope I can make it. 

What terrible news :|

And naturally, I get strep throat.

Gym on hold until these antibiotics kick in :(

Today I will go to the gym for the first time in almost 3 weeks.

This workout’s gonna be a rough one.

Wish me luck, team!

x

New goals for the semester!

Hi you lovely fitblrs you. I know it’s been so long since I’ve posted, but I’m only just having time to breathe, let alone blog. I’m sorry it’s been such a long time! 

I’m officially two weeks into my senior year of college and I realized I need to write out my goals before I can set up a plan to accomplish them. So, without any further ado, this is what I would like to accomplish before the semester is over:

• Reach 160 or find pure self-love. Whichever comes first.
• Get back into running. Like really. I miss it so so much.
• Drink less, eat healthily, be conscious of my decisions.
• Don’t worry about the little things. They just don’t matter.

Reaching 160 is a 23 pound loss (yes, I’ve gained about 13 pounds this summer…bleh) and I definitely think I can do it if I set my mind to it. I just want to be happy and confident in my own skin. This is just such a long and uphill battle, I’m ready for it to finally be over.

Everything else just needs to become habit, a lifestyle change. I’ve just fallen into my old ways and I’ve found myself in a self-deprecating downward spiral that I need to get out of. I think I’m going to maybe start posting my meals again? 

Side note: I turned 21 and I like to drink. It’s going to hinder my progress, but it’s something I’m not really trying to avoid. I don’t want to drink to an excessive/binge status, but I will drink on the weekends because I’m in college, I’m young, and I can. Sorry, not sorry.

Another note: I’m going to have to put Insanity on hold. I don’t have the time to do the program as I should and I just don’t want to half-ass it. Maybe over winter break I’ll finish it or something. We’ll see.

The only thing I can ask from you guys is to hold me accountable. I wouldn’t be where I am today without this amazing Tumblr community. So thank you. <3

On top of Insanity today, I also ran a mile and rock climbed :)

Feelin’ goooooooood.

Back from vacation!

And feeling really, really, spectacularly disgusting.

I’m too sleep deprived to hit the gym today, but tomorrow will hopefully put me right back on the healthy track.

Hope you guys didn’t miss me TOO much ;)

x

Vacation time!

YOU GUYS I AM GOING TO CALIFORNIA TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND SHAYNA.

Unfortunately that means I won’t be back until NEXT Monday :( AND my queue is horribly empty. But don’t fear, despite my dead appearance I will be back with renewed energy! By the time I come back to Arkansas, I’ll have a little over a month until school starts, and I want to look even better than I do now before everyone comes back. You know what I’m sayin’? ;)

I love all of you, thank you so much for your support, and I’ll be back soon <3

I’m off my game, guys.

And I don’t know how to get back on it.

:|

Didn’t have much trouble with my workout yesterday.

Clocked a mile in 9:30 and did two sets of arm exercises. I know I need to do more, but my reintroduction to the gym is prolly going to take time.

How are you guys?